Wednesday, 15 August 2018

Can Life Get Boring Or Can You Just Get Boring?

At the age of 23 I am constantly questioning what I get up to in my life. I wouldn't say I have the most riveting life. I don't go clubbing, even though that by no means makes me boring it's just something I don't particularly enjoy. But it's things like this that get me thinking that I am not living my 20's the best of my ability.                                     

Ok, so let's run through a normal day to day in the life of Beth.
6:45 am: wake up, have breakfast and get back into bed with youtube.
8:15 am: leave for work
8:30am-6:00pm: work
6:00pm-11 ish - dinner, shower, maybe workout, sit on my laptop or watch a tv series.

With Saturday and Sunday varying but mostly with shooting outfits (which I love) but again mostly sitting around at home on my laptop or watching tv, perhaps visit my family and the occasional (a lot more often in the last year) meet friends for coffee, food and a good gossip.

It's boring or am I boring?!

According to Sam every 2 months - his words. I get upset and down in the dumps because I feel like nothing exciting is happening in my life and I'm going to look back even when I hit just my 30's and think was that it? Is that all I did? That terrifies me. The thought of it actually makes me feel slightly sick.
 Ever since I was little I've known I wanted to do lots wth my life. 6 months being a surfing beach bum in Hawaii anyone? Yes I know that's a little extravagant. But still I want to see lots of the world. Even England, I've only seen Newquay, Edinburgh and London. I just want to have these crazy memories that I can look back on and think. Fuck yeah, look what I did! I can tell my kids about all the things I did. I can tell their grandchildren!

But yeah here I am sitting in my bedroom most days doing what? Nothing. I blame work, I blame having to work and earn money and save for a house and I blame the fact that Sam likes to sit on his xbox and do you know what, that's just stupid.

It's no ones fault, it's definitely not Sam's fault. The only person that can get their arse into gear and instead of sitting around start doing this, is me.  Life isn't boring. It's only as boring as you make it.

Yes we have things like work that we have to get through and sometimes after work we're so knackered we just need to curl under a blanket and nap. But I'm 23 for peak sake I have all the time in the world to sleep (need to get the fatigued feeling under control) I should be doing things with my time and having funny stories I can share with my blog and just look back on what I did feeling super happy and fulfilled.
 Because that's the thing isn't it. We all want a fulfilling life. I want those days or evenings of little things, bowling, mini golf, walks ANYWHERE, cinema, drinks and getting tipsy (not clubbing), games nights, weekends away, weeks away, trying out new sports. Honestly I could probably write a huge lists of things I want to do.

But really, my mood isn't going to improve until I start doing them and the only person that is going to be able to get this stuff to happen. Well me of course. I need to ask people to do these things with me I need to book these weekends or weeks away. I just need to do as much as possible. At weekends, in the evenings whenever I am able as much as I can.

Life isn't boring, it's as boring as you make it and I am through with being boring.

Don't get me wrong I still want days where I stay in pyjamas and I only change when it's a shower in the evening but change into new pyjamas kinda day. Because they are pretty great. But if I want to do something instead of being like 'oh, that would be nice if one day we did..' and just say, can we do this, on this day or yada yada' you get the idea.

Because let's be honest the quote "You will never have this day again so make it count" has never been truer!

Wednesday, 8 August 2018

A Week In Newquay, Cornwall

Between a 4-6 hour roadtrip away (dependent on the time you start your travels) Newquay, Cornwall can be at your finger tips. Just ensure that you make a killer playlist - or if you're like me fill it with songs from your past such as Westlife, Alexandra Burke, Busted, Britney Spears all that good cringe stuff that you can scream at the top of your lungs as your boyfriend looks onwards and like he wants to leave the car running and just jump and roll out the drivers door. The joys of driving is you can load up the car as much as possible and not have to pay for any luggage check ins and when you're camping this can be very handy. Not mention the foot well on the passengers side (which should preferably be yours) can be stocked with all the road trip snacks required.
Coming from Brighton, which yes we are lucky to have the seaside, city and field vibes all on one doorstep comes at a price. We don't get waves, which means no surfing and if we're lucky to get waves it's when the winds are vicious the rain is lashing down and it's probably also bitterly cold. So that's a big no from me. Instead heading to Newquay means wave and surf heaven. Not mention actual sand beaches which can be a nice change from pebbles. Although I do love the pebbles because it means no sand, which is bliss as that stuff gets EVERYWHERE.

We booked a camping site, which if it's really not your think they have plenty of B&B's which forever have vacancy or no vacancy signs in and I'm sure there are plenty of AirBnB's to go for too (but book early as they do go quick with sea views) But if you can hack a campsite ours had lots of clean showers, a heated outside swimming pool, an arcade - which we did go to for a couple of air hockey rounds and an onsite pub.

Most of our time was spent at the beach surfing but there were a few foodie spots that I thought were cute little gems worth mentioning and also the beaches need to be mentioned too.
Tolcarne Beach
Be prepared to get your butt into shape for this beach because there are ALOT of stairs going down and a lot going back up if you want to reach this beach. A personal favourite for me though. They have a kiosk for hot/cold food and snacks and they even do gluten free and veggie options so if you want their burgers (which I recommend) you can get it bunless and in a big salad leaf or two. You can also hire boards and wetsuits right on the beach so no worries about clambering up the stairs with a massive board, because if like me you are a beginner and only stand up 50% of the time you're going to need a sturdy 8 foot foam surfboard and those things are difficult to carry! They also recently created a very good looking restaurant which I have yet to try but something on my list for next year as it looked amazing and the food sounded delicious. Although quite a popular beach it was never overly busy, so when we went in the sea and spent 2-3 hours at a time in their I felt fine leaving our stuff on the beach, phones and all as you could always kind of see it. Also another bonus, the water was never too busy so you didn't have to worry to much with either being a wave hogger or someone getting in your way (although that doesn't mean to say it never happens so beware)

Driftwood Kitchen Coffee Deli
Every year there seems to be a new opening of some sort and while I think this was open last year we only ventured in this year and my goodness am I glad we did. It was insane. I ordered a buddha bowl which I was informed would be a selection of all salads on offer at the counter. I had pesto pasta, potatoes, cauliflower rice, a green leaf salad with croutons my goodness it was delicious and washed it down with a iced latte with a caramel syrup - my go to. Sam got a toasty. But all sandwich selections can come toasted or untoasted so if melted cheese isn't your thing and the best thing is. The deli comes with a view of the beaches, beautiful clear blue water and sandy beaches. How else would you want to eat your food and sip that coffee.

The Brew and Tattoo
A place visited last year, but not fully embraced. This time round we fully took advantage, I got a pot tea while Sam got a latte, which he said was tasty and we both upon the recommendation of Jodie got a brownie. EVERYONE needs to get this brownie. Firstly it is not a stingy little square that I find a lot of cafe's give you. It was a good big chunk. Secondly they drizzled it in caramel sauce. It was insane! The brownie even had caramel sauce in it so it was so nice and gooey, probably the best brownie I have had. As said in the title they sell coffee and do tattoo's. The coffee shop being downstairs and the tattoo studio upstairs. They offer walk in tattoos from £30, very tempting - how cute would a hibiscus on the back of my arm above me elbow be? But I resisted. However Sam did cave and he got his first tattoo! One thing I find intimidating about tattoo studios is the decor. It's all dark and full of skulls and the artists are covered head to toe, which I really don't mind but can be intimidating. However this space was open, airy and quite colour with summer hits from the 00's playing on the tv. The girl that tattooed Sam said that upon working in many studios she knew how intimidating they could be so wanted the polar opposite and it really works!
 Fistral Beach
One of Newquay's most famous but busiest beaches. This is one of the ones most people flag to so I do tend to stay clear. But I still can't help but visit once or twice as I do still love it and its where the photos featured in this post were taken. Plus when Boardmasters - Newquay's surf and music festival is on. It's where the surf contests take place and where the Boardmasters village is held. With events, food stands, clothing shops and all sorts are situated. (The music side is on the cliffs by Watergate Bay) Plus all the water can be very busy when the waves are flat at Tolcarne (due to it being in a cove) this can be a good second because as there is usually always something. Plus last year, on the sound side of the beach while climbing yet more stairs there is a cafe on at the bottom which does a delicious acai bowl!

Barefoot At The Beach
On the last night we decided to hit up this beaut place. Probably the newest bar/restaurant in Newquay and definitely decorated that way. Think hanging bulbs. Open and minimalist with beach features it ticked all the boxes. On this night I was VERY hangery. So ended up ordering a Pesto Fettuccine with a side of chips and Sam ordered a burger with a chilli jam and bread with hummus to start (we shared the bread of course) Some place I'd definitely go back to sample more because A their menu had so much to choose from and B I didn't have ID (due to passing my driving test and in England they take your provisional away so you get your license quicker) and they had a HUGE list of gins cocktails and an even bigger list of gins which you can pick from to create your own gin cocktail. So next year I will be going back to sample. Not to mention again lovely views of Towan beach.
 A short but sweet little post on the gems that is Newquay. Now as said because we spend the majority of the time in the sea we don't see enough of the surrounding area and sample the cafes and all sorts but I'm sure next year there will be new places to sample and a new post to follow. Not to mention we already have a place we want to visit a short travel from Newquay which I know I want to show you guys.

Sunday, 29 July 2018

Festival Time With PrettyLittleThing

Festivals are in full swing and to say that I'm not slightly jealous watching everyone going to see amazing bands and enjoy the whole festival vibe would be a lie. But my day will come (18th August to be exact) and I couldn't be more excited. The only problem is. I'm not a huge fan of festival wear.. I'm not a big wearer of colour or sequins two big things that I see at festivals. But again, PrettyLittleThing challenged me to create some festival outfits and so I thought.. Challenge accepted.

So off I went to the Festival Feels section and started by filtering the search to the colour palette I know works in my wardrobe. My word was I surprised. There was SO much to choose from and so I had to start creating  mood board after mood board on what I thought would work together to help create that vibe I wanted and here we are.

Outfit One - Oversized Tee As Dress

I have been seeing oversized tees worn as dresses for a while now and I just think they're super easy and breezy to throw on for a festival. When I saw this tee on the website I knew straight away I wanted to size up and wear it as a dress. Although I probably could have sized up once more (I got a size medium) I definitely think this is going to be a strong contender for Rize Festival. With the oversized feel I don't have to worry about my arm pits not being able to breathe (don't pretend you don't sweat from the arm pits, we all do) And I just want to help them as much as possible. Not to mention the motif on the tee gave me all the band tee vibes without being a fraud and wearing a Joy Division or Rolling Stone tee when actually I probably only know one or two songs and those being the most popular and probably will only recognise them if the song came on and someone said "oh this is so and so" So I'll just stick with the pretend band tee vibe. Then I thought it would only be wrong not to throw in a fedora because A have always wanted to wear one to a festival and B it's all about the head protection against the sun kids! We're outside all day so it all makes sense, especially because I only recently realised that the UV rays can damage your hair!

Outfit Two - All White with Black Details

All white to a festival!? Is she mad?! I hear you scream. Well yes, it would be pretty daring. Especially considering I am known for ALWAYS getting food down me. To the point where Sam has said that when I get in from work, if I am wearing white I have to change out of it before we have dinner! But honestly white and a tan just go hand in hand and I couldn't resist. Not to mention how cute this little top is, it is currently out of stock online but I have linked a very similar PrettyLittleThing top. Since trying out a white denim skirt I have also wanted to give white denim shorts a go. Because I mean if you're wearing shorts you can do all the drunken cartwheels at a festival right? These fit so nicely. They hit me just where I want them to so I can wear crop tops in comfort and they don't cling to my thighs so no chaffing for me. The only thing I would say is size up just one size as they are a little bum cheeky.

Outfit Three - The Most Sort After Co ord.
 Yes, this coord sure has done the rounds. Especially in the white colour. But you know, I'm not that daring. I couldn't have two white outfits and so I HAD to get it in the stone colour. I just feel the sleeves really give it such a boho vibe and it's pretty hard to resist. Not only has it got the button down detail which I am obsessed with still but you cannot beat an off the shoulder vibe. Both stop at the perfect place showing a cheeky bit of skin in between but not too much so I can still help myself to that all important burger from the greasiest burger van going at the festival and then to tie it all together these killer boots. With a heel not too big, but big enough to stamp on the toes of people that push too much in the crowds (total accident of course.) Plus with the studded detailing I just feel it all ties together for that all important festival vibes.

So there we have it. How I'm going to pick one of these to wear when we go to Rize Festival for one day I don't know. Perhaps I'll have to be totally extra and change in the grim portaloos in between acts just so I can wear all three.

Have you guys got any festivals planned for this summer? I'd love to know where you are going.

Wednesday, 25 July 2018

A Little Life Update

So yesterday I broke up for summer. Halle-freaking-lujah! Yes the luxury of working in a school. Everyone was saying that this last term is a killer and I seriously brushed it off and thought it couldn't be that bad, as long as I have the sun then any playground duties and outside duties at after school club will get me through the 7 and a half week period. But my word. They have been tough, you can tell everyone is tired. Even the children and as the weeks have crept closer and closer I have been losing my patients just a little bit, however I have kept my cool and got through it. My little corner of the internet really has taken a back seat. This is mostly due to absolutely exhaustion at the end of the day (I will explain more). I literally come home, have dinner and a shower and climb into bed. If anyone is thinking about working with children in a school or anywhere else because "it'll be piss easy" trust me it's not. But that doesn't mean I love working with them because I sure as hell do. I am so grateful that although I didn't choose to persue a career as a teacher (see why here) Also noted that I seem to right life update posts every July. I have still been given the opportunity to teach at the school I work with, just without all the added paper work as well as acting like a big kid myself, children really are great.
Like I stated above I haven't been the best with my little blog due to exhaustion. Some may call it sheer laziness. However for me its been getting little out of had. To the point where when teaching children in the afternoon, instead of sitting at the table with them I have had to stand and rock from foot to foot as if I sit down I fall asleep, I can't keep my eyes open, no matter how hard I fight and I did actually nod off once. Now for someone that get's enough sleep, has started drink at least 2-3 litres of water a day and has no stresses in life at the moment it did feel a little concerning. So I took myself to the doctors for a blood test. I got no reply, which they said means nothing will be wrong if I don't get a text. However for me that wasn't a good sign. It meant I was no closer to finding out why I was becoming exhausted early in the afternoon. So I took myself to the doctors website and low and behold I can actually view all of my records. I scrolled through and it mentions something about thyroid and how I should speak to a doctor. Although I haven't made contact yet, due to the next 2 weeks being busy and me also heading to Newquay for a week of surfing it is on the top of my list to do when I get back. It'll be interesting to see if the doctors have anything to say and many people have actually mentioned that I should try taking B12 tablets which I am looking into so that I will keep you posted on. I feel this paragraph was a total anti-climax.. oops!
Ok, so now that the summer holidays have hit. It's full steam ahead with my blog. Yes I know I can't just do it in the summer and slow down because it doesn't work like that. But I have given myself the goal that is - this time next year I will be quitting my school job and becoming a full time influencer. It is out their now in the world. Everyone knows my goal and so it will happen. It's all pretty exciting. I'm going to my first event tomorrow and I am so excited to be meeting some gorgeous girls I have been speaking to for a while on instagram and I feel that is the start of everything that is about to happen. Not only am I doing that but I have set up a Youtube account. I just feel it is the next big step. I have been hearing bloggers saying that blogging is dying out. Which breaks my heart. But with Instagram being a platform that brands are constantly wanting content for it can become tricky. Youtube is also something so easily to digest. I tend to watch youtube every morning and evening as I can do other things while it's on. I love the whole idea of videography in vlogs and things to and I also dipped my toes in with IGTV and really enjoyed. That is another platform I want to be using as I think it is really going to take off. So this summer is all about setting up a Youtube, IGTV and continuing my blog and instagram so that when summer ends I can keep up with them and within the year be able to do something I love full time. I am planning on uploading to Youtube twice a week - Wednesday and Sunday and same goes for my blog, I'll be trying to upload on the same days so there will be plenty of content for you to get your teeth into. Not to mention how well we're all going to get to know each other as I want to be as honest and as open as possible and really be talking about all sorts of topics. It's a dream I can feel coming true so keep watching, I am super excited for this journey.

Those are the three big updates for now. Who knows instead of a yearly update I might make a three month thing. We will just have to see if the life of pagesfrombeth becomes interesting enough. I feel good things coming guys.

Sunday, 3 June 2018

A Pretty Little Thing Holiday Haul

England is actually hot and has been for a good couple of weeks. It's quite a big rarity here in the UK so I've been making the most of my summer wardrobe and wearing it as much as possible as well as adding to it. The more summer clothing I add the longer it will stay hot and sunny right? So with that idea in mind I went full blown over on PrettyLittleThing and ran to the Holiday Shop because nothing screams summer like a bit of summer holiday shopping and pretending to plan that Santorini or Italian holiday in your head. But in reality I'll just be swanning around Brighton Beach in these gorgeous pieces.

PrettyLittleThing very kindly allowed me to pick some pieces that would help me create my summer wardrobe for the season and honestly I took so long scrolling through, mostly because their was just too much choice and I wanted it all. However the pieces I decided on I am in love with!

The first outfit I went for was this gorgeous striped two piece. Now I have recently decided to change my whole look on instagram as I want something a little more sophisticated and what better way to start than by picking a clothing colour palette. As I was searching through I stumbled through this and ticked three of the colours all in one outfit, Jackpot!

 With a cute tie front top and a simple mini pencil skirt you can really create a summer vibe with all the gorgeous neutral tones. There is just something about this top that has me feeling quite outgoing and I love how I can continue to get that bikini tan as I wonder around or sip a few drinks or even just forget a bikini and head to the beach. I also was kindly sent these sliders which have actually received lots of compliments. I feel western vibes are making a return and these simple sliders with a western buckle are a perfect way to incorporate that trend, plus still hitting the colour palette. One thing I do recommend is sizing up for the top if you are a little larger in the breast area and just staying your normal size for the skirt, which FYI wear nude underwear with because it is a little see through, but who really minds when an outfit is this cute?

 The next holiday outfit is this gorgeous bardot. Blue being another colour I want in my wardrobe I opted for this colour although they do so many colours. I paired it with a white denim skirt and a black bag and sandal as well as adding this gorgeous layered necklace, I am all about gold jewellery for summer especially if you have that golden tan I just love it! But this blue bardot is stunning. With two tie up details (be careful of a little too much nip) and a cute off the shoulder detail which again before for the summer. I just think it's perfect and something nice about it if you're not all for showing your arms.

Now this two piece and I semi turned into a dress. I got a size too big and perhaps it's because you can tie the two shoulders so could just do with a tightening but because it felt so baggy I styled it with a belt to pull it all in and give me a little shape so if you want to wear it as proper separates I suggest buying down a size from your usual. But again in keeping with the colour palette I want hints of reds and things in my wardrobe too. Again I styled it with black accessories and the sliders just to pull all together and the western vibes with my belt and sliders. Nailing that trend I feel.

Lastly is this outfit. The most simple of them all, but nonetheless no less cute. Just a simple stone colour crop top and some black denim shorts. I ordered this crop top in a size medium and thank god as I don't think it would have covered much if I had got it in my size. I probably would have sized up again if I had known how cropped it was just because I'm not a huge fan of my tummy as you can tell. (signing up for the gym this evening) and with the shorts I would have sized down because they really are MOM style and I have turned them up to make them a little shorter. However if I can get that toned tummy I will definitely be wearing this to a festival we have planned in August because I know I can do silly things and not worry about flashing. Plus it's uber comfortable with that knitted vest.

Also this is a quick introduction to my new hair! As you can see in my first ones, my hair is a different colour and I've gone for a blonde balayage! Which I am still getting used to but beginning to love!

That's it for my holiday and the beginnings of a strict wardrobe colour palette which is fine by me. I'm so glad that the weather is still warm enough for these pieces. But to be fair you could wear the tops with jeans if the weather is cooler. But regardless I will be wearing these pieces throughout the summer and continue that whole holiday vibe.

Wednesday, 16 May 2018

Get Ready For The Wedding Of The Year With The Amazon Fire TV Stick

Guys, it's fast approaching! We only have 2 days left until the Royal Wedding and I heard it's going to be bigger than William and Kate's! I remember during their wedding I was still at school so we were given that day off and I remember the sun shining and all sitting down as a family to watch it, it was so exciting and such a lovely atmosphere so I can't wait for that to all happen again. 

One reason I love a big event like this is - well I have to put my hands up. I am just super nosey. I absolutely love a wedding and I am constantly scrolling through pinterest looking at ideas and themes for my own that I hope to have one day. So for me, I love having a nosey at what colour scheme they chose, the flowers chosen, what the guests will be wearing and most importantly the wedding dress. I can't begin to imagine the slight stress Meghan may of had thinking about the dress, after all let's be honest it's going to be one of the biggest spoken about things. I've already seen polls on taking guesses on who the designer of the dress is! Also how could I not forget that a lot of us are probably wanting to see Harry in his military attire and also he may be without that beard and who doesn't have a little crush on Harry?

Do I need to sound anymore excited?  There are so many aspects that I want to nosey in on and thanks to Amazon who kindly gifted me the Amazon Fire Tv Stick I can now watch the wedding live thanks to this stick. It's sitting plugged and waiting for Saturday. However, it's not the only time I've been using it to gear myself up to this day. My friend has been asking me to watch The Crown on Netflix for absolutely ages and I have finally caved. I mean what better time to get into such a program than on the run up. Especially when it's got the Queen Elizabeth and Philip starring in it (not actually them, but their story) and with the first episode having the two's wedding it couldn't be more appropriate. I am totally hooked and can't stop watching.

So with all the anticipation of wanting to be nosey and gearing myself up with a bit of The Crown every evening I think you could say I am one excited little bean and will definitely be bringing out the champagne, popcorn, posh chocolates and totally getting one of those crowns on my head ( a girl can dream of being a princess) as I watch the wedding unfold on Saturday 19th May using my trusty Amazon Fire TV Stick to watch live coverage.

What will you be doing? Will you be watching and if so where will you be?

Wednesday, 9 May 2018

Putting The Pressure On Yourself

 Most Evenings Sam and I plan to sit down and watch a tv series together. We make sure we're already for the next day, make the bed all cosy and then jump on in to get watching. However, most of the time we're not 100% sure what is going on in the series because we are glued to our phones. Both avid scrollers of instagram and we just can't seem to get off them. Even when we say no phone we some how find ourselves on them. Yes I know that's REALLY bad when you know you can't stay off them. I mean people upload on Instagram all the time so I have to keep up to date right?

But with the feeling of having to keep up to date comes pressure. As someone who isn't shy to say they are working to make this into something to pay the bills it can be hard not to look at numbers and keep an eye on what others are doing. I feel there can be quite a taboo in saying that someone is working on this so that one day it can be their job. But to be fair it's something I enjoy and who doesn't want a job they love? But it can get hard when you watch your likes and followers a lot. It can be disheartening when you don't get those likes you wanted or if your followers don't go up as quick as you like. Recently I've been stuck in the 1.8K region for quite some time and it does get to me. Am I posting the right stuff? Is my content getting boring? What do people want? It's draining. I think when I get like this it's important for me to take a step back. Even if its just for a night I put it away and leave it alone. Sometimes I meditate and focus on my affirmations. Other times I just have a night with Sam. That way I can come back the next day feeling refreshed. Then I really focus on not looking on my profile. I post content as usual. But don't touch the photo or click my profile after. I just engage and leave meaningful comments on others content.

I have actually seen the benefits of doing this as I recently did gain 40+ followers after not caring. So it's true what they say. If you don't care in your numbers they actually go up. And although I anticipating this taking off I need to remember it's not about numbers in the first place and I do it because I love style. I love making friends through blogging. And I love taking and editing my photos the whole process brings me so much joy. This week also a friend from work said how she could see the aura around me glow when I talk about blogging and working hard on it and that's enough for me. For someone to notice my aura with the whole concept of blogging.
Another thing that I feel pressured by is creating and getting content noticed. With thousands. If not millions of gorgeous girls all working on their brand and trying to get noticed it can be very difficult. Trying to keep up with the trends and posting the most up to date outfits is hard. If they're not up to date then you lose out on chances to be reposted by that brand, which can organically help your own brand grow. Another thing I feel pressured about is my look. Now I would never alter anything about my body to grow an audience. But you see all these girls doing amazing and I can't help but notice the constant gorgeous tans, stunning nails and the golden hair that many seem to have. And for me, I have stubby nails because I have a bad habit of picking them, and I only let my skin tan when it's summer. I have to be honest though. Without the pressure of feeling like I have to change I have started fake tanning and actually feeling the benefits of feeling more confidence when having that tan. I have also considered nails. Not because they would look better for the gram, although I do envy the look when people take photos holding things as I always attempt to hard my awful fingers. Lastly the idea of getting balayage. I have been thinking about trying the idea of a blonde balayage for summer I can't help but thinking all of these things I have started doing or want to do is it because subconsciously it's because I've been seeing it online all the time? Am I going to fall into the instagram cliche? It also makes me feel a little bit like a hypocrite considering the things I see working and could be seen as feeling pressured to do is also something I'm doing because I 100% want to.

The last reason. Although also going back to the idea of turning this into a career is the guilt of not knowing really what to do with my evenings. Weekends are spent getting content and as much of it as possible. Most weekends I shoot between 5-7 outfits and that will last me about 2 weeks worth of content. But during the working week I come home and the main thing and probably only thing I do is interact with people on instagram and occasionally through their blogs. Although I know that is very important and I very much enjoy doing it I feel their is more I could be doing. However I don't know what that is. So I always feel pressure in the fact that I could be doing more. I could be getting my brand noticed further and yet apart from interacting I don't really know how. So I pressure myself to try and figure this out and still getting nowhere. It's a very tricky world.

It's tricky indeed. But it is something that I absolutely enjoy. I love creating content. I love working hard to create new and better things and getting to know people who share the same interest. I love feeling inspired enough to want to try things I wouldn't necessarily do before - i.e. change my hair or try out nails to not only look good but help my own grow.  I think when you're feeling the pressure it's important to take a step back and remember why you do it and what you enjoy about it. No matter whether its a hobby, your career or a career path your starting to embark on.

Sunday, 29 April 2018

The Year I Stop Saying Sorry

The other week @kelseyinlondon put three instagram stories up. They were talking about how if you read captions in instagram posts a lot of the time people apologise for things. We'll see people say things like, sorry another post with this outfit (I'm actually guilty of this myself). People apologise for parts of their body, things like apologise for how tired I look or how my hand is placed or how wrinkly my knee looks.. I know right! Countless times you also see, sorry last of my holiday snaps.

We are constantly apologising for our flaws or posting something too much and what Kelsey was saying is please stop! If you loved that outfit please post it, if you wear it all the time please do. In fact we hope you do as you did pay for it at the end of the day and you need to get your moneys worth, plus you look so fabulous in it so you do you hun! I want to see how you style it, if you style it in different ways, make it look dressy or don't make it look dressy thats absolutely amazing and if you wear it exactly the same as you always do then PERFECT because it clearly makes you happy and we want to see happiness blooming everywhere.

Again with the travel and holiday photos. You worked hard to go on holiday and you are having a fabulous time so makes us all jealous while we are suffering in the rain. Post that cocktail, sunset, bikini shot because they look fabulous and give many of us that wanderlust need. If you still post about your holiday when you get home, great. You clearly got some great snaps and why wouldn't you want to share them. After all instagram and blogging is for sharing imagery.

Finally apologising for things that you think aren't right with your body, lets just hone in on the first paragraph I wrote. Why are we so worried and feel like we need to apologise for it. 9/10 no one is going to notice and even if they did would they comment, I mean maybe if they're a keyboard warrior. But don't people only write nasty things when they are jealous, feeling low in their own selves or perhaps they are just not very nice people. So we shouldn't take any notice and if its for the reason of feeling low in themselves then we should try and help them to become happier. Love your body, don't draw out the flaws because they're not even flaws anyway and you look absolutely stunning. Remember that.

The reason I write this post is because I am serial sorrier.. yes it's not a real word but I say sorry all the time! Weather its for the reasons I mentioned above, because lets be honest we have all probably been guilty of doing at least one of them. But also I say sorry a lot in my day to day life. It can be as simple as bumping into someone by accident (of course it's polite to apologise) But Sam is constantly telling me to stop saying sorry. We can be at home and I can just shuffle in bed and I'll say sorry and pretty much all the time when I say it to him he always asks what I'm sorry for because he hasn't even noticed and then laughs because he just finds it so ridiculous that I would even apologise for it.

I'll apologise for accidentally dropping things on the floor, even if I am picking them up straight away, I'll apologise for accidentally getting in someones way if we cross paths. I'll apologise if I send someone to get something and realise it's closer to me. I'll apologise for making a loud noise or having to repeat myself. Anything. I mean reading these back of course some I guess you would apologise for because it's just polite like mentioned. But it drives me crazy when I say it for things I know don't need it. I'm sure as well it drives people I'm close to crazy. It's not ok.

That's why I think this year we should all have a year of less sorry. We should do what makes us happy and not apologising for posting those x, y and z on our Instagrams. They're ours to do what we wish with. As for saying sorry about things we don't need to say sorry for it can be harder. Sam picks up on it quite a lot and tells me not to be. But you could start up a money jar and £1 goes in every time you unnecessarily say sorry. I might even take that tip up by myself.