Wednesday, 18 April 2018

My Spring WishList

Ok, so I may have skipped spring dressing and jumped straight into summer. But look at these pieces!  Definitely on a bit of a Topshop Hype and could definitely of just made this into a Topshop wish list but, oh well. It could have something to do with the fact that there was rumours of 21 degrees this week and for us Brits that means legs out, beach towels over shoulder and heading to the beach. Yeah we're kinda mad like that. Plus, I'm a big wishful thinker and I just keep picturing me on beaches in all these pieces, so maybe I just need to book a couple of summer holidays so I can wear these pieces.

But I know my wardrobe needs a big spring/summer revamp so I can feel fresh as a daisy so why not try new things. Plus isn't that suit too cute, imagine that with the button vest and the cream espadrilles. Yes, both the black and cream made the list because they both can really make an outfit look so different and I am one of those people that gets the same thing twice in the white and black. The colours just make such a different to an outfit!

Also I totally want a rope bag for those sandy beach photos with the big oranges. I literally scream Instagram cliché. So if anyone wants to take a few road trips to camber sands this season hit me up because I want all the beach/sand dune photos!

All the items are linked below so click away and spend spend spend.

Sunday, 8 April 2018

The Boohoo X Zendaya Edit - The Lilac Suit


Hello, I thought I would write just an old school outfit post today. Because I mean I think this suit needs it's own post really and I actually enjoy posts where someone talks about the outfit and maybe throws in a little life update, so let's get to it!

As with many outfits I seem to upload recently I always use the phrase *If you had asked me a year ago..* but yes this outfit needs that phrase again because my style is really evolving a lot a this year and I'm finding myself massively in clothes and styling and I actually enjoy every day opening my wardrobe and thinking yes, I'll grab that and style that with this and this. However my bank balance isn't feeling quite the same but it's surviving nonetheless and hey we get a new pay check every month so..

Anyway, onto the outfit! Look at the colour to start with. Stunning right? Zendaya dropped an amazing edit on boohoo and honestly if you haven't checked it out, where have you been?! It's an edit full of stripes, dresses and tailored pieces. So there is totally something for everyone and perfect to add a little something something to your spring/summer wardrobe. But things are selling out quick so click here to get your mitts on some items now! I mean unfortunately my suit is out of stock too, but keep your eyes peeled as I'm sure it will be back!

But yes back to the suit. When I first put it on I jumped out of the car *glamorous car change there* and just said "I'M AN EASTER BUNNY" I was so out of my comfort zone with this. It is NOTHING like I have ever worn before. But you know what, I took a breath and thought no. I am going to rock it. I twirled round the streets in the quiet town that is Lewes and didn't care. I don't think the folk of Lewes knew what had hit them. It's very tailored so thats where dressing it down with a tee and even knotting the tee comes into play. That with the trainers I think drops the vibe immediately and why I think I felt more comfortable in the suit. Also another thing to note is the blazer didn't have shoulder pads, thankfully! I am not a shoulder pad girl and again that helps the laid back but pulled together vibe.

I do think though that if I get invited to any formal events - i.e. weddings I may be that girl that brings out the suit. As with heels and a lace cami it could look gorgeous. Even if I just wear that outfit without the blazer it could look so chic. Or vice-vera, jeans, a tee and just the blazer an easy way to channel the whole smart casual vibe. I know we all freak out about and start rocking in a corner thinking what does that mean, what does that mean?! So bam. There is 3 outfits from just one very affordable outfit *kicks self for not taking photos of the other ways to style this suit and make this a 3 ways to wear a suit post* Ah well. At least that's a new post in the back pocket!

And there we have it. The old outfit post done and dusted. That's if you made it to the end and didn't jump over to the Zendaya edit which I know is very tempting right?

I hope we are all well! 

Wednesday, 4 April 2018

Being On The Contraceptive Pill And Turning Into A Psycho


I read an article in the summer last year and sent it to a friend. We have a lot of conversations about taking the pill and changes is it's made to us. The article talked about how actually every contraceptive pill makes women depressed or anxious (unfortunately I can't find the article so nothing to back up that this could be the truth, but hear me out). However I have read that studies have shown that taking the pill can lead to higher risks of depression and a huge 80% risk with teens. But after reading this and chatting a lot with my friend and also reading Sophie's post about the pill here and where I got that article study from, I think it's time to write about the affects its been having and still is having on me.

I've been on the pill since I was in year 11. That's 7 years ago. 7 years pumping extra hormones into my body, hormones that have developed and caused such a rollercoaster of emotions. I originally went on it due to painful and heavy periods but then obviously as most people it provided that all in important protection, however it only lasted about 4 years, maybe even less. Who knows when I felt a change really. I started on the standard Microgynon like most people. The pain and heavy flow went and it was wonderful plus once you get into a routine it really isn't all that hard to remember taking it every day. But then after a while even when the reminder alarm goes of all I think is eurgh not again.

Because I thought it was Microgynon I went to the doctors and mentioned the affects I was feeling with my moods and having the tendency to go from happy to pissed off to sad rather quickly and for silly little reasons I felt paranoid about unnecessary things and above all it's when my anxiety appeared. I mean sometimes I'd cry if I'd had a really good day with my friend and then I'd be leaving them and mostly recently 9 times out of 10 after spending time with a friend I leave worrying that I'd said something stupid and that that person wouldn't want to be my friend anymore. Crazy much? I mean there are so many little spats that I have blown out of proportion between Sam and I and after I have felt a little silly for over-acting. But at the time I cannot control the anger and upset I feel no matter how much I try to tell myself its not that bad the mood over rides any sane feelings and bam, psycho Beth is making a scene and causing drama over something that we shouldn't really be having this full blown argument about.

I've heard that after a good few years you should take a break from taking the pill, but it isn't due to the changes in your wellbeing, well mood wellbeing anyway. But because of what it can do to us women being able to have little people. However, I think for our sanity we should take breaks like every 5 years. Or you know give men a turn.. but that's a whole other chat.
The temptation to just throw all my pills in the bin and not bother with it is unreal. I can even tell the weight of my shoulders I would feel. It would be so up lifting. But then what? Again I recently mentioned the whole contraceptive pill to my friend and again we started joking about the freak outs we've had which we know is down to the pill and I literally just said, I want to stop. I cannot do it any more. I've had enough of something controlling my emotions. I mean granted since focusing on the positivity aspect of my life as I mentioned here, I have felt slightly calmer however I can feel my hormones burning away, waiting to erupt again and enough is enough!

So my friend mentioned that actually there is a injection we can get and it's not supposed to have any hormones whatsoever in it. It's an injection that we think get's injected into out butt cheeks (glamorous right) and you just have to have it re-injected every 3 months. So I think this is the next trial. I want to go and talk it out with a doctor in the easter holidays and maybe even go ahead with it because I am so ready for the real Beth Apps to return! I would just be so intrigued to feel the changes creeping back and not have to worry about when the psycho is going to rear her ugly head you know?!

So if I do go ahead with I'll totally update you guys!